I hear it in bird song.
I feel it in rain.
I breathe it in winter.
I can’t hear it again.
There’s a peculiar feeling
Of silence and stillness
That I grasp for,
Without success.
There’s a feeling of solitude
Without pain, or fear.
A feeling of peace,
Knowing something holds you dear.
There’s something I find
Pressed up into you,
In the protection of your arms.
A feeling of something true.
When my eyes are closed,
And I’m about to fall asleep–
I grasp that stillness,
And feel my heart leap.
I found you, through pain and glory.
I found you, and it hurts,
But that is only payment
For knowing I won’t suffer more broken hearts.
I will stay with you,
In my broken homeland
Of roses, thorns, and words.
I will stay, because you understand.
You understand me when I can’t
Bear to be touched again.
You understand when I joke and laugh,
But there is something wrong right then.
You understand me, and you love me–
Even when I try, and fail.
You even understand when I
Don’t try, and reward me when I prevail.
Thank you for providing me
A place where I can be sane.
Where I can relax, and breathe for once,
Instead of surviving through the pain.
I know I complain, and I know I cling–
So, thank you for listening
When I’m losing myself.
Thank you for loving.